A Warning to Spiritual Seekers

Somewhere down the line of the spiritual path, there's a sign that says there's no turning back. At least, it would be nice if there was one. Maybe this blog will be that for you.

Spirituality is a total body-mind-spirit experience. You're getting excited about this, I can tell. You're equating some of those fleeting, other-worldly, higher-state moments with what I'm writing. Well, you're not quite right. I won't say that you're all wrong, but really you're being very selective. You're finding the piece of the puzzle that you like the best and equating that to the whole puzzle. It doesn't work like that.

You know, some of your worst days are actually your best spiritual days. You're getting a chance to see all your self-hate, pessimism, and fear right up close and personal. They're gifts for you. You've earned them through all the other days where things weren't so pressurized. You're feeling uncomfortable now, aren't you. You're saying, "No, that isn't spiritual. I meant sitting and meditating with my guru." Oh wait. I'm sorry. Did you think you got to pick and choose in this matter? You opened up the box, and everything is working its way out now. All those nasty dirty little secrets that you've kept locked down for so long. They've got to go if you really want to touch the depth of your soul. So here they come.

A long the way, you're going to do some hard work. Some excruciating work. Some crying, screaming, can-someone-put-me-out-of-my-misery work. Sorry. This is the spiritual path. It comes with complete disassembly required.

Because at some point we all got caught up in the illusion, the game, the sin if you're feeling particularly melodramatic. And you got to sort it all out again. You gotta find what's real and what's not. Along the way, you're going to have to leave a lot of stuff and oftentimes friendships behind because they no longer serve you. It's tough. I know. I'm sorry (this time for real). Because you need to have the right kind of people in your life who can support this new growth and this new phase. And they have to be ready to handle all the crying, screamng, and so on and so forth while you come into this new sense of being.

And it's not like it'll be over when you get there. You'll keep growing and changing because you'll see that you are change. You are always changing, and there's no goal to seek or achieve. You'll have to accept it or learn to accept it. There's nothing that can be done about that. But it is beautiful down there, I've heard. Probably worth all this anguish that is almost totally self-inflicted. Because as we cut away these bonds, we start to see how vast and beautiful we truly are. And then we grieve. We grieve for all the time that we spent bond and intertwined with our darkness, avoiding our light. These tears wash away the rest until we can just be.

Your whole life will change. You know this if you really understand the spiritual path. I hope you're not still seeking anything. The doorway is already open; the path right at your feet. You know what you need to do; it's just time to do it.